i find myself most vulnerable during the wee hours of the morning. during this time, everyone i can think of calling, texting or yahoomessengering with would already be alseep, having sex, drunk or drugged. being awake, sober, partnerless and in a state lucid interval, i find myself alone to swallow all these things that i choose to chew. insignificant stuff mostly. things that do not matter to anyone else but to myself unless there is someone out there who cares that much for me.

during the day, everyone's at work.

i find myself in another low period in my life. for one thing, i am literally on hold. the worst part is that i do not feel empowered to actually act on this. i am also too weak and tired. i cannot get myself to be the me who's been through everything that kept me whole all these years.

no, i am not commiting suicide. and yes, i want to bounce back into the blogging scene. maybe one of these days, i will post something worth reading.

posted by carl @ 2:54 AM